A week from tomorrow will mark a year since Zach and I had our divorce finalized. This week, he and his fiance will get married & are going to be having a baby. Shouldnt bother me right? I mean, I ended up pregnant 4 months after he asked for a divorce. I am living with Robert, but there is no ring on this finger. Her and I are "friends" on fb. It is kinda blah to be honest. He seems so much more excited, enthusiastic and more happy with her having his baby then he ever was with me. Rub my belly? HA! As if! He always had better things to do. After all, I was just pregnant. No complaining allowed early on because I wasnt "that pregnant". Dont get me wrong, he was supportive, and caring. But I dont ever remember him saying me being pregnant was sexy or that he loved my belly. Except with Eden. He talked to her. He never let himself get excited it seemed. Always cautiously optimistic. This time he seems so different. I am terrified that he and her will treat the girls differently because of the baby. Maybe I am simply being paranoid.
But still remains the fact...they are getting married the same week we were divorced. Kinda a slap to the face to burry the knife a little deeper. Who knows. Maybe Ill remarry with Robert someday.
Until then, I dont know. For know Im in a cranky way, i need sleep.
